I
miss her most in the glow of morning Her warmth now somewhere else I could kiss her until my lips fell off But
they have nowhere to fall Her beauty becomes the air Her air becomes my breath And I breathe in her absence Until I also become absent Until I also drive love to my grave To keep myself warm in my death My love will
settle over my skin Until my skin is gone And my love will settle the dirt As a hush, a caress, a fertile glow In the mornings that I am gone
Pepe, my heart has water in it Heavy from my heat I find it interesting
to stay calm And to look at the soft lines To look at the blur and fuzz Of newborn leaves Perspiring
their blossoms to the street Some flew through my window New confetti turns to old confetti Instantly And
the welcomed gift of life through my window Caught my attention in its streaming hands Snowing empty faces past
my sill To softer places than the street But they don’t belong where they won’t disintegrate They
don’t belong to me And now I’m in charge of these friendly faces That are dying on colored wool Running
their last white lives On my natural floor Oh the faces, I don’t know if they are turned up Or turned
down They won’t look at me The shy petals of 58th Street
Pepe, sometimes you wouldn’t look
at me either Your tiny little head so attached Laying in your turkey position, tucked Little black wrists so
limp You’d keep it all to yourself Contained in your cuteness Pushed behind your nugget nose Sparking
your spine in gentle black Motionless You moved me And I’d sway as the branches next door Lit up
in the explosion of spirits Laughing in the silence of love Doubling over in a crowded heart Exalted in the
freedom of you Still Motionless Cutie pie You’d make me jump Much higher than your poking
hairs Higher than those few oily ones On your spine, poking God, they’d poke me in a comfort I can’t
explain They pet me like the tree across pet me And it was always a surprise I still see you Chou Chou But
I don’t have enough of you for the rest of my life Little girl, what do I do? Look at me then. Keep looking
at me From your invisibility Maybe now you will look at me
You are my shy petal And I won’t
dismiss the littlest gifts Little fits Of joy Returning static to the whispering sun A lift a release
I am you we are one
Chou Chou? Are you looking at me? Then I will place you in me It’s the
only thing I can think to do I am going to tuck you in to my fluttering soul You in your turkey position, tucked It’s easy that way And I will hold you dear Maybe love myself more if you are in me I will I do I now
cradle you In my name
They’ll read about us in the papers, Pep Cat Found Inside Woman We’ll
be famous for a little while I hope you can handle that We’ll be known for a little while Until they
forget about us But I promise you I will never forget you It would be like forgetting myself Little girl, we
are one
April 10, 2010 For Pepe
Emerald landed like a human embrace Not to the ground, not you, not yet But rather on the
front of this Tuesday morning. Angelic your wings, so fine, so sheer. So still. How divine you are, how
becoming you are Into a deeper shade of you.
Adorning this corner of grace Streaming silver to sudden
rest On what will always be yours. Stolid your stance, magnificent, so near. So still. Dignified
you turn, and turn into yourself Solace is the peace in you.
Copper crowned, your laurels encased Sky to sky to not forget On the face of your soul adored. Calm your presence, heralded, so dear. So still. Elegance about you, to know more about you Creased in carried blue.
Lore, a life of infinite trace Passed a child blessed On a whisper your shadow soars. Innocent your regard, so pure, so clear. So still. Exemplified in a moment, the sum of all your moments Cherished and given so few.
September
14, 2004 The
Cicada For
my father, Cedric B. Naudé
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